Rebellion,Goals, and Discipline

Maybe it's just me. Maybe some of the rest of you deal with the same issues. But I do not deal with being ignored, even if it is not intentional. I need at least a reply to hello when I send one.

Much to the displeasure of my rear end, I have been in major trouble three times over the past two weeks. Twice was for grades. :( Honestly, I think teachers should bring back the curve. And the third was for attitude on Sunday night.

So my goal for this week is to stay completely out of trouble. Monday went good, and Tuesday was a close call. My lab instructor for one of my classes is a complete jerk. If I was an overly violent person, I would have hit him by now. Thankfully, I am not, but the man is driving me insane and had me in a really bad mood for an hour. Luckily, M was at work, and I didn't talk to him until several hours later, when my attitude was much more joyous.

Today, M hasn't responded to any of my text messages, which isn't like him unless he loses his phone or it dies. Both of which I know didn't happen today. He called me, but I couldn't answer the phone because I was in a meeting for work. When I called him back, we spoke for a minute and a half, and he has yet to call me back like he said he would. Grrr.

I understand the man is busy, but it is times like these that make me want to rebel and be a brat. Why should I bother to obey rules when you're nowhere to be found? I was thinking about how I should probably ask for extensions on bedtime for a few days coming up, but then, I started to remember about him basically avoiding me today and the pattern that happened the last time this occured.

I am sure that later I will regret feeling this way as his boss was probably breathing down his neck the majority of day.

However, I am up to day 3 of staying out of trouble. GO ME!!!!

Joining the circus

Remember how people use to declare on tv how they were running away to join the circus? Well, that is how I felt for about the past month. It wasn't until this week that I finally got out of my funk of hating going to school and having to keep up with people who didn't seem to care that much about me to begin with. So I guess I have alot of stuff that I should catch everyone up on.
For starters, M is back. He didn't abandon me. His phone was broken. He apologized about it, and then, he apologized for basically ignoring me for so long. We agreed to pick back up on the whole accountability thing. We haven't talked about getting together anymore. I can tell you though, if I haven't already, that the two of us will never have any sort of romatic relationship. M is a nice guy, don't get me wrong, but he is just one of those people that I can be friends with but never date.
This is the first week in a three week time period that he hasn't been upset with me over school. Okay, we had one day where he wasn't to pleased this week, but that was because I got a lab practical back and made a D. So it's kind of understandable. However, Sunday that I wasn't taking school as seriously as I should be, he was getting really sick of the attitude, and if I didn't lose it, I would regret it. M gets annoyed when I get this attitude of not caring and asking everyone else to do my schoolwork for me.
M just laughed at me when I told him that I was giving up and running away to join the circus.